I Leak

 I leak... 

Most of my life... I have lived with the realization that I am broken.  I have prayed for healing.  Some areas have been mended at best.

After 58 years on earth. I have come to the realization that I am who I am.  

I have heard the story about the broken bucket several times in my life and that story comes to mind this morning. 

If you don't know that story.. I will summarize... (if you know this story, jump to the end to read my application.... 

A young child was assigned a chore.   Each day, she would walk to the well.... fill up two buckets and then make her way back to the house. 

Day after day she would do this task but noticed when she got back to the house that one bucket was half empty. 

One day, her father noticed that his daughter was sitting on the porch looking dejected. When asked, why so downcast she replied, "I can't do anything right!" The father asked her to explain.

She told him of her dilemma. 

The father  took her hand and they walked slowly to the well. Along their walk he showed his daughter that what she thought was a failure,  unknowingly to her, had created a wonderful display of beauty.  You see,  as she walked that path with the leaky bucket, she was watering flowers unnoticed by her because she was focused on her failure.

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I have come to the realization that God has used me more in my brokenness than He ever could have if I was totally whole. 

Embrace who you are!

Allow God to use you in your brokenness.... and.... feel free to unashamedly leak every place you go!

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The Death of Fall

A friend of mine reminded me of something a posted a few years back. I thought I would share it again....... There are so many current events where this could apply. Let's let go of those things we need to let go of.. in order to allow for new life.. and new beginnings.

"I love the fall... the cooler temperatures. The lower humidity. Football season. Knowing that my favorite holidays are coming. The beauty of the falling leaves. But there was always this nagging thought of death and decay because of the falling leaves and the drabness after all the leaves were gone.

Well... this is my 2nd day in the woods doing a three day backpacking trip in Zaleski State Forest and a paradigm shift came to me about this morbid part of fall. I am sitting here eating my lunch and taking a break from the trail... and leaves are falling all around me. I was thinking again about this dark side of this wonderful season.. and then it hit me. It is not about death at all..... it is about letting go. You see.... the trees are not dying. The trees are merely letting go and making way for new growth in the spring. Sure it looks like death. Sure it looks like nothing is happening. But the trees are just allowing a natural part of life to occur. Letting go and making way for the new growth.

We should learn this important lesson from this season and the trees. We need to so readily let go of things in order to make room for newness to come. There might be a "death" type season where nothing is happening. But WE do not die. It is just the things that are no longer needed. They drop off in order for the new to come. So... let go.... new life is coming."