As I become more sensitive the inner moving's deep inside me I am aware of the frequent changes of the inner atmosphere.
I notice these sudden changes
In my inner atmosphere... Where fro nowhere a sense of anxiety will rise up inside of me. . I have heard of people talk of these kind of things.. But i didn't think I had experienced it.. But i can see... That yes.. I do experience it. And I always have just taken that as a change in my emotional state.. Or that something spiritual had taken place.. Or a fear that a depression was coming on.. Now.. Just like I have counseled people who have had these anxiety attacks... Now.. I can counsel myself to not be so freaked out when these storms rise up all of a sudden inside of me... I need to recognize them quickly. Not be afraid of any damage that might be brought on. Any damage, would be the result of damage done by a riot that is stirred up in trhhing to flee an otherwise small skirmish. So many times in the past what was only a small skirmish.. Because of my over reaction.. I have created so much damage. Perhaps the beginnings of a grudge. Or a fit of silence towards someone who I took offence at. Perhaps I treated the unrest in me with things that were more damaging than the storm itself... Eating.. Drink... Laying in bed that might lead to further deeper depression.. Putting off doing important duties.
Well... Now that I am staring to recognize those tiny skirmishes for what they are.. I will choose to not react. But to allow the storm to pass. To relax and know who can and will calm the storm. And that I, as a believer in Christ can weather any storm with my hand in His.
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